got such a yearning for some completely ethereal woman goddess to come steal my soul and force me to worship her. its like this ache that is more than sexual. i mean obviously although i have tried to talk to myself into believing that one of the many girls from my past was meant to be my destiny none of them actually were. that makes me super sad in a way but also really relieved and happy in a way too. maybe it was all my fault in each and every doomed relationship but so be it man. whatever the case may have been i was obviously not content enough to conform to the unspoken boundaries that i know and they knew i was confined to. no matter what the reason was for my deliberate hard headed stubborn way of living the bottom line remains the same.
my destiny woman, if she even exists which i doubt, but i hope, will be a woman who i can throw my whole being into and who i never have to even care if we are at home or out living in the forest by ourselves or in a big city because she so fully captivates me and i her that the rest of the world ceases to exist in any meaningful way. the one. everybody talks about the one. do they even know what they are saying what they are hoping for what they are dreaming about.
i have had wondrous nights of incredible leave this planet kind of lust filled sexual frenzy tongue in mouth until lips are chapped can’t get enough of her or her of me. hundreds of those nights with probably a hundred girls. why couldn’t i sustain that zest that passion that look at her always and be horny in my heart and in my pants?
just give me my soulmate make it clear to me that she is my soulmate and let me fend for myself with her. i don’t want riches i don’t want fame (well yeah i do unless i get her) just give me the woman of my dreams who is searching for the man of her dreams and when she dreams she sees my face and touches my lips and i hers. give her to me while i still have time to enjoy her. i want to experience that great love that rare as fuck love the kind that you don’t talk about cuz its so fucking amazing you don’t even have time to brag or boast all you have time to do is stare at her and miss her when she is gone its not an obsession but you can’t live (happily) without being by her side where a weekend away is pretty traumatic.
i will trade it all for her.
woman if you are out there look for anthony mandich and find him before it is too late. universe if it is someone i know now let me know.